The lies you tell yourself
Spread around the crevasses of your brain
The ones that say you're not enough
It's ridiculous to expect everyone to love you
Ridiculous to expect everyone to like you even
Crumpled up inside my ears are lists of things I know to be false
But somehow these post-it notes demand that they're real
I'm not enough
I'll never be enough
I just need to get outside my head
Squish my skull with my fists
Throw it in the trash
The warranty is up
Did I even get one?
I thought it was never going to break
Too many scratches on the flesh of my scalp
Too many cracks in my brittle bones
Wash the grime away
Scrubbing my skin with steel wool and bleach
Stop
It's not outside
It's inside
Coat my lungs with Lysol
Powder my heart with nostalgia
Rinse my bones
Place each one in the dishwasher
Unzip my skin
Put it in a zip lock
Drycleaners special
And my brain...
Fuck my brain
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