My garden of sadness is overgrown
By black dandelions
Blow the seeds
Make a wish
No Don’t
You’re just spreading it around
Stomp on the flowers
Weed my organs
Lungs full
Of black dandelion seeds
Growth
They're growing
Am I growing?
Am I shrinking?
I feel so small
In my own head
Stop it
Stop thinking
It’s too much
You’re too much
You’re a joke
Can’t you see?
Get on the bus
Pay your fare
Take my heart
Inject it into a syringe
Pump it back
Into my chest
It’s leaking
Through my guts
Everywhere
Shaken
I’m all shaken up
Pools of my heart
Leak into my eyes
I can’t stop crying
Do I look okay?
Tear-stained cheeks
I still feel like I don’t belong
I can’t fit in
My heart is too
Leaky
Solidify it
Freeze it
Mix it in gelatin
For fuck sake
Put it back together
My heart is a gelatin ice cube
Now you know why I’m always cold
No
You could never warm me up
People have tried
Separate me like laundry
Place each part of me
In different coloured baskets
Pour fabric softener
Down my throat
Soften the lumps
I keep choking on
I’m not clean
I can’t get this filth out
From underneath my skin
Peel it back
One giant organ
Peel it back
This doesn’t matter at all
Peel it back
Scrape it off
Take your nails
Dig it out
Scrub my skin
With a wire bristle brush
Run the bathwater
Until its clear
What if that takes all day?
What if it takes my whole life?
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